OH GOD DON’T GET ME STARTED ON FFX
it’s been years since i played for the first time. since then, i go through it from start to finish about once every year because i can’t live without it.
oh what don’t i love about ffx
what don’t i love
there is nothing i do not love about ffx
i love that it’s actually Yuna’s story, she’s the jaw-clenching protagonist with the world on her back and the big destiny hanging over her head and the sad childhood friends who help her along the way because they want to die with her. we expect Tidus will be the Destined One because of his role as the player character and big jock who talks loudly and slowly becomes less of a n00b, but he literally exists as the Fayth’s vehicle to guide Yuna to a real solution that will end their millennial torment.
I love Wakka’s jock big-heartedness, and how he grows from a pigheaded religious kid and kind of a racist jerkass into a man who understands how Systems betray their faithful, how hurt he is when he finds out his religion is a disgusting lie intended to keep the people of Spira in a neverending dance of death and horror, and how he struggles with that.
I love Lulu’s cold badassery. I love that she’s grumpy and scary and the story doesn’t force her to “come out of her shell” in order to make her lovable. I love that she is the strongest hitter in my party once I break her damage limit, and that she is completely devoted to Yuna without any illusions whatsoever of how it will end for her, because she understands the cost of the people’s freedom and intends to pay it with her life. I love how she only loses her fucking cool once, when Yunalesca reveals the truth behind the Final Summoning. She was OK with sacrificing her life when it was a chance to help, but finding out it was essentially futile offended her more than the idea of helping to kill her own best friend.
I love Auron’s grim devotion to Jecht and the way he carries his secrets and lets Tidus and co see what their sacrifice will buy them, until they find out the truth. I love that fucking SPEECH he makes when everyone’s been disenchanted, time to choose: fuck Yunalesca’s shit up and lose your temporary reprieve period forever, or buy into it and perpetuate the cycle like EVERY OTHER SUMMONER HAS EVER CHOSEN TO DO.
I love that Jecht was selfish, shitty and an abusive fuckhead, and how his love for his son bound them together with as much hate as love, and how he changed over his Journey into someone who might have been the father Tidus deserved. I love how, even as Sin, his unfinished business with his son ties him to his previous self. As Sin, he still tries to get close to Tidus even though he can’t help but cause untold devastation and suffering to all around him. What an amazing metaphor for father-son abuse.
I love Braska, because he was a man going to war and leaving a child behind, and he did it because it was worth it to save everyone else’s child from Sin.
Kimahri got the short end of the plot stick as the Taciturn Bruiser With A Vow, but he was still great. I love his devotion to Yuna, and the way he turns out to be the runt of the Ronso who got endless shit for his height and his broken horn. I wish we knew more about his personality than the little glimpse we got as he described his trip across the Moonflow with tiny Yuna jumping into the water and scaring the fuck out of him.
And Rikku. I love Rikku. I love her brains, her creativity, her dialogue, her casual assertiveness and her awesome weaponry. She’s perky, she’s competent, she fucks shit up. She doesn’t take shit. She is the perfect foil for Wakka’s stodgy luddite personality. And she’s a thief. FUCK YES.
And Tidus. I love that he was the tragic doomed love interest. I love that his story is that of a misfit newcomer who barely clings to the limelight. I love his whining because he’s a spoiled jock. I love that his PTSD is a Thing, that his father’s abuse left actual scars but his feelings are allowed to persist even though we know Jecht became a better person after they were separated. I love his bravado and his fail and I love to hate his stupid ugly jock outfit that makes no sense. I love that the other characters constantly reign him in because he gets all gung ho without having the clue basic. I love that his love for Yuna was admiration and celebration of the person she is, how he never stifled her, how he gave himself to her instead of the other way around. I love his childishness and his ferocity and I love that he ended up being the softhearted do-gooder of the team. I love that Lulu took a long time to accept him on his own merits because he hadn’t earned her respect yet.
I love the random character banter during fights. I still hear exchanges that are completely new to me after 6 years! I love how they cheer each other on, remark on each other’s failures, and sass each other.
I love that Tidus made it all that way to tell his father he hated him, even though by this point he was finally able to let go of his anger and just accept his father as he was (even though now he’s a giant monster).
I love how Seymour sounds like Winnie the Pooh and has the most redonkulous handlebar ‘do in the universe, because it makes him so easy to kill.
Oh, wait, I lied. There’s something I hated.
There are two things I hated.
1. I hate killing the aeons. I hated it. I nearly cry every time I see Yuna’s body language as she grimly summons up another one of her guardian spirits to murder, even though it’s what they wanted.
2. And I hate choosing between Gatta or Luzzu. I almost always pick Gatta to kill nowadays, because I can’t stand seeing him fall apart when Luzzu dies. I always thought of them as a couple and just… war is fucked.